The End And The Beginning

To the end of one year

and the beginning of the next.

Lead with a louder heart beat,

brighter intentions and bigger dreams

than ever before.

-Jennifer-

As we approach the end of this year and move forward into the next, I can't help but look back at all of the daily miracles that have occurred in my life.  This past year has been the beginning of many new things in my life, as well as a continuation and deepening of all of the things I have learned to be so grateful for.  I've been able to witness my own growth, breath by breath, moment by moment and day by day.  I've learned to let go and welcome all that is to come.  

Looking back at how far I have come in just a few years takes my breath away.  The struggle and fight that once was daily life for me, has now cleared the path for my fulfilled purpose. What and who surrounds me now is night and day to my surroundings just a couple of years ago.  The last year I have grown to understand and develop the tool of manifesting.  The art of manifesting the life that I knew was mine to be had.  I just needed to have an understanding of how to get there.

I made my first vision board a few weeks ago.  It is the summation of everything that I already have in my life and want to strengthen and also the things that I desire to have that haven't quite arrived yet.  I begin each day with looking at all of the pictures and I end my day the same way.  I am reminded of how grateful I am for all of my teachers in this life and all of the blessings that each day brings.

I am grateful for what I already have, but also for all of the changes that are yet to come.  This next year for me is full of new and out of my comfort zone kind of things. As I have realized, stepping out of my comfort zone is what opens my heart more and more and allows supreme gifts into the present moment.  Although I am still in my Hatha yoga teacher training until March, in just a few weeks, I will be traveling a distance and leaving the comforts of my own home to venture out for an additional eight month teacher training.  This practice in particular is my calling.  It is my breath of life. It is the very practice that called me to be a teacher. It is the practice that led me back to my Self and to my destiny.  

I can't even begin to imagine all of the wonderful blessings that are to come within this next year.  I do know that they all will be welcomed with open arms. And I can measure what is to come by those blessings that have already shown themselves. The end of this year is very different from last year. Although last year had its own sparkle, this past year has been so much more brilliant, vibrant and alive. Probably because that is the exact feeling I have each and every single day.

Thank you for allowing me to share my journey with you.  Spirit Launcher has been a record of my story and growth through time and the process of my practice. When this journey for me started a couple of years ago I was given three messages during three consecutive meditation practices.  The first message was, to "be alive in life", the second, "you will heal many" and the third, to "start writing".  The moment I began to write, all of these messages became my way of life.  I cannot thank you all enough for your kind words and support.

For this next year I will dare to dream bigger and dare to dare bigger.  I will continue my journey for more of the truest of love, the stillness of peace, the divine connection to everything and everyone, and even more so the deeper findings of myself.  And to remember each step of the way, the bigger the gamble the greater the reward, the longer the wait, the bigger the love and to never forget the sacred space we hold within our own hearts and our promise of purpose to share that sacred space with each other.

What has this past year brought up for you?  Share with us, we would love to hear from you!

Have a safe, blessed, healthy and happy new year Spirit Launchers!  I can't wait to share our new year's experiences together!

As always with love,

Jennifer

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©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.

The Walk Within

Our Divine presence is

always one breath, one whisper away.

We can call to what is greater than 

ourselves at any given moment.

No matter how far we think we

have run away, that power has been holding 

our hearts all along.

-Jennifer-

As you all may have noticed I've taken some time away from Spirit Launcher to focus on some other things. It is so good however, to be back.  The past few weeks have brought some serious learning, gratitude, acceptance and ultimately understanding under my belt.  My yoga teacher training has accelerated my spiritual practice to a whole new level.  

We just finished the book, Value of Values by Swami Dayananda Saraswati. This book to me was so special and so significant in reflection of my constant awakening in life.  This book was a life review of sorts for me. It's incredible to see the comparisons in each section of my old way of being followed by the new tools and living techniques that I have adopted and have been implementing in my everyday life.

One thing that he discussed in this book is our non-separateness from the Divine.  And that we are in fact that Divine power in human form.  When I first ventured on my conscious spiritual journey this was one of the first concepts that I was introduced to by Dr. Wayne Dyer.  I wrote about this in my article, The Extension.  This very concept was a game changer for me because I never acknowledged or knew how to accept that spark within me.  That spark of love for creation of the desires that were implanted in me. Understanding that it is my piece of the Divine that is my promise of purpose in this life, still gives me butterflies just thinking about it to this day. 

I've been blessed with the opportunities to share with the world what I love to do most, and that is taking care of people.  I get to care for patients in my nursing career. I get to care for my clients when they walk through the door of my spa. And with yoga, I've learned to take care of myself and that Divine spark within. Eventually, these will be teachings I can share with my own clients when I expand my business. This practice has deepened some of my relationships and it has allowed me the strength to let go of the ones that no longer serve me. 

It is so interesting to me to examine how my life has unfolded from my past and to see bits of my future ventures as they come to me in sparks of inspiration.  One incredible gift that was given to me happened during a recent Kirtan concert that I attended with my mom.  I talked in one of my very first articles called, My Awakening, of how music was such an integral part of my life as far back as my earliest memories.  I dreamt about writing and performing music professionally but my fear of failure stopped me in my tracks.  As I wrote that article I thought that desire was long gone.  And then I attended the concert.  This particular Kirtan performer had been introduced to me during a +Gabrielle Bernstein  lecture over a year ago.  I downloaded this particular song and listened to it over and over again.  When I found out he was performing at my yoga school I was in complete shock.

Not only had this particular song been a huge part of my healing in the last year, I was going to be able to see him perform and take a workshop with him the following day. Funny how your destiny will meet you at the most perfect time, every time. When the concert began I wanted to be singing along with everyone else. The fear of resistance settled in.  As much as I wanted to join in I felt the fear welling up in my chest and throat.  I didn't judge it.  I felt it, acknowledged it and accepted it as rising for a reason.  There got to be a point where I didn't feel the urge to just want to sing, it became that I had to.  So I did.  I heard my own voice sing in front of other people releasing that fear.  Although I knew the premise behind the concert was to call onto the Divine, I've never felt the Divine within me to that degree.  I am forever changed because of that night and the workshop I attended the next day.

I believe life meets us exactly where we are.  I am so proud of my own bravery during my own walk within. I no longer judge myself for my fears and doubts.  I fearlessly allow what needs to come up show itself, in order for me to walk through the other side of it. When I use the word fearless, I don't mean I don't feel the resistance attempting to hold me back.  I mean that I acknowledge it, knowing that I must walk through it and not allow it to restrain me from what it is I'm being called to do.  I've learned to be fearless whether it be through baby steps or leaps and bounds. Often it is those baby steps that lead me to those leaps and bounds.

My walk within has allowed me to reach the Divinity that is my spirit, that is my heart and soul.  It has allowed me to deal with compassion towards myself and to reach out with compassion to others in a way that is beyond words.  I realize that I am a writer but my actions must speak louder.  When we look within, we reach a state of loving grace and offer an extension of our hearts to the world around us.  We can clear our path from all things and people who cloud our way.  Everyone and everything becomes our teachers in order to bring forth what is within us that needs to be released whether it be love or fear.  

The walk within has taught me that I am never alone.  The Divine presence within me is my constant companion through this life. My guide that offers intuitive intervention in everything I do.  As I speak to my heart, I honor the Divinity inside. As I honor that Divinity, nothing is lost, all can be gained, and all will be what is meant to be in every given moment.

How do you speak to the Divine within?  Share with us, we would love to hear from you!

As always with love,

Jennifer

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©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.

Intention

What we think is what we see.

What we see is what 

becomes.

-Jennifer-

The power of intention is one of my favorite things to talk and write about because it is such a prominent daily tool for me.  Every day when I wake up I set an intention.  That intention is always of service to others. I pray that I may be of help to as many people as possible throughout my day.  My nursing career as I've talked about many times, is an absolute expression of service.  How can I help? and how can I serve?, are my two favorite questions to send out to the Universe before my day even begins.

The subject of intention came up the other night in my yoga teacher training.  I thought this was so interesting. I've been feeling major pings of anxiety every time I go to speak about my experiences in class. Last week the anxiety came to a head.  I know what I want to say, but what comes out, sometimes I'm not sure if it even makes any sense.  But as we came to the last alter for discussion, I forced myself through the fear and just spoke. I didn't focus so much on what I was saying, I just needed to get back to the basics and just speak in front of my class mates. I needed to push myself through that discomfort in order to get to the other side of it. As I finished talking, a release came over my body.  Shortly after, we did an awareness meditation and I literally felt energy rushing from the top of my head. The anxiety was gone.  It was a really crazy amazing experience.

As I was driving to this week's class I thought to myself, I am letting go of all that doesn't serve me.  I felt a calm come over me.  As we stepped to the foot of our mats at the beginning of our practice our instructor asked us to set an intention.  This intention was big for me.  I stood in silence and "finding strength through letting go" came to my mind.  That was my intention for my practice.  Not only mentally did I feel strong, but physically I was doing postures and movements I didn't realize I was capable of doing.  There was such a grace to my practice I was in awe of the transformation.  And all from setting and focusing on that intention. My instructor continued to bring us back to that intention throughout the practice.  

Later during the lecture she began to talk about the importance of intention in our practice and as teachers to introduce the power of intention to our students.  She then asked us to share our intention by using one word.  I was a little thrown off by just being able to use one word.  Because I was letting go in order to find strength. So I quietly mumbled strength, not really sure if I should have said letting go instead.  We continued the class and then ended with a restorative yoga session.  At the end of the practice my instructor again went around the room and asked us to share our intention. I again stated strength. But this time it was with unwavering confidence.

Through all of my teachings and practice I have always been taught that we have everything we need inside of us.  It is a matter of unveiling those things in order to bring them to the surface.  This was a perfect example of doing just that.  Not only am I feeling physically stronger, I feel mentally and emotionally stronger in everything that I do.  I don't beat myself up if I'm struggling over something.  I release it to the Universe in order to see the lesson, work towards that lesson and await the answer and the solution.

I don't need to know, be and see everything right now.  I can faithfully await for life to be revealed to me.  I am not just practicing yoga.  I am practicing and fully participating in life.  No matter what comes my way, I am learning.  Intention creates a focus.  It gives a reminder of what is going on in the now.  What we are to see, experience and contribute now and how that will effect the world around us. What we intend to contribute to the world will come back to us in waves of infinite new possibilities.

How do you use intention throughout your day?  How does it help you see the presents in your present? Share with us, we would love to hear from you!

As always with love,

Jennifer

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©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.

Meditation of Intention

Happy Wednesday Spirit Launchers!  Today's Meditation is such a vital aspect of our daily lives and daily practice.  I would like to explore more in depth, intention.  Setting intentions for our day and throughout our day, gives a clear extension of energy sourcing from our hearts and going straight into the Universe.  Intention helps us to stay focused.  Intention is also the art of manifesting. It is clearly stating what exactly it is that we need. What do we bring into our own lives everyday?  How does that compare to what it is we want and need to be bringing into our lives?  Practicing intention helps us to see how interconnected we truly are to everyone and everything.

So let us join together today in community and set our own intention.  It can be anything.  It can be asking to be more patient, kind, compassionate, vocal, present...the list could go on and on.  Just pick one intention and focus on it throughout the day.  Notice how the flow of your day changes from if you hadn't set an intention at all.

Setting an intention gives us focus.  It also helps us align with our spirit and surrender to the will of the Universe.  A quote from Kris Carr that I love from this past Super Soul Sunday episode is, "When we truly embrace acceptance, that is when our body exhales and can begin healing."  Let's all join together and let our bodies exhale to whatever it is we may need in this moment and throughout our day.

Sit in a comfortable cross legged position.  You may want to light a single candle before you.  Let that represent the light that is within you.  Close your eyes and take long deep breaths in and out.  Focus on any tension that may be present in your body at that moment and breathe into that space.  Focus in this moment on letting go of anything that no longer serves you.

Choose a firm intention, do not waiver.  That intention is your mantra throughout today's meditation. As you breathe, continue to repeat that intention.  If your mind strays just bring your focus back to your intention. Find your power of purpose for the day through this meditation.  Carry this meditation with you.  Live within this meditation.  Let the day unfold before you.  Sit in this space as long as you need.

May your day be filled with love and peace.

Namaste

As always with love,

Jennifer

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©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.

Loud And Clear

How loud is the voice 

of silence?

-Jennifer-

I talked in my last article about the practice of non-attachment.  It's been showing up in my life quite frequently.  And yesterday was no exception.  I was asked by a friend to teach her how to begin a yoga practice.  We talked over dinner the other night about how unhappy she is not only with her body, but in the way she handles certain situations in life.  She is wanting to not be so high strung and more open to everything.  

I prepared over the weekend a practice of meditation and postures primarily focusing on hip and heart openers.  Knowing my friend carries unresolved emotional pain daily from her childhood, I wanted to design a practice that would benefit her the most.  So she could see the release not only physically, but also emotionally that the practice of yoga could offer her. 

As I was preparing a playlist for the session, my friend contacted me and said she wasn't feeling well and wanted to know if we could meet later in the day.  I knew that probably wouldn't work with my schedule. Even though I had spent quite a bit of time preparing, I didn't think anything of the change in plans.  That in itself created a funny reaction in my body. That funny reaction was silence. I didn't have disappointment over the cancellation.  It was the silence of accepting the outcome of the situation.  I knew that another time would be more appropriate for either her or me or both of us for this practice.  It is the newness of no reaction as things change that continues to arise for me multiple times within the same day anymore.  I can plan all I want.  But as I always say, the Universe's plan is just what I need.

I looked at the time and it was almost time for Super Soul Sunday to begin.  I turned on the television not knowing the author Mark Nepo that was being featured.  As soon as the interview began, I realized why my plans had been changed. I needed to hear and receive the messages in this episode.  Nepo talked about his own awakening that stemmed from his cancer diagnoses over twenty years ago. How his life changed in an instant and the blessing that diagnosis was to his life. Now his books are on my must read wish list.  

He said many quotes that brought me to tears. He is a poet as well, so it was no surprise he could word things so beautifully.  He stated at one point that it isn't the thing that breaks us open, it is what that thing breaks us open to.  That resonated so deeply with me.  My marriage was the very thing that broke me down. Yet it was the very thing that led to my divorce that broke me open and has allowed me to live a new and better life.  

This got me to reflect on the last three years but also my conscious shift in perceptions that I began over one year ago.  To think of my past and the constant chatter in my mind.  In the beginning of this journey of how desperately I wanted to be somewhere and someone else.  The evolution of my own Self that has taken place has been an incredible blessing.  And an unbreakable one at that.  

I no longer look at hardships and challenges as punishments.  I hear the lessons loud and clear in everything I do.  I look at all experiences as victories.  And I see victories as celebrations of faithfulness. It is in silence that I found my voice again.  It is in peace that I found my own love that I so desperately searched for. It is in grace that I found the hand of my Divine that holds me eternally.  

I am so grateful for the pain that broke me because it sent me on the great search for my Self.  I didn't know the person I was in my marriage.  I had to break my life down in order to figure out how I became that person and also to figure out how to not go down that same road ever again.  

I feel the shifts in my life as they are happening.  They appear to be happening at greater magnitude and with greater force.  I wonder if it is the shifts that are greater or if it is me that is awakening more in the presence of them?  I feel a connection with everyone and everything that strengthens moment to moment. I see miracles happening at the speed of light, yet by my being present, they seem to be in slow motion.  There is a stillness that follows me everywhere I go.  That stillness allows me to see the big picture and to heed the call of my own purpose.  It is in stillness that I receive direction and feel the guided hands of direction in everything that I do.  My mantra through life is, "I am present, so I will receive".  

So how loud is the voice of silence in your own life?  Share with us, we would love to hear from you!

As always with love,

Jennifer

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 ©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.

The Practice

It is with practice that we see the old

transition to the new.

The old, becomes a distant memory.

The new, cultivates a freshly blossomed companion.

-Jennifer-

The last few weeks for me have been extraordinary.  I have been recovering from an upper respiratory infection that has still not completely left.  That being said, I've never been so grateful to be out of commission.  As you may already be aware from reading my articles, I am a firm believer that we are being led by a force greater than ourselves and that everything happens with purpose.  We may not understand that purpose from the get go, but eventually if we are wide awake enough to see it, it will show itself.

We were assigned in my yoga course to choose a yama.  Yamas are disciplines concerning our dealings with society and the world.  Examples are: non-violence, non-stealing, chastity, non-attachment, and truthfulness.  After reading through the examples our instructor wanted us to share the yama we would focus on for two weeks.  I thought and thought but none of them were speaking to me at the time.  So as I've learned over the last while, to just sit in silence and let it show itself to me.  And did it ever!

The very next morning on Wednesday, I woke up with a sore throat and felt terrible.  I knew I was getting sick.  I had an incredibly busy week loaded with clients.  I feared for only a second about the loss of money in having to cancel so many appointments and trying to reschedule those cancelled appointments to an already overly booked schedule.  Then I said to myself, "I am sick and need to take care of myself.  The Universe has my back and will sort all of this out. I am letting go and letting the Universe do her thing!" By Saturday I was feeling well enough to keep those appointments.  I worked a full day and felt on the mend. Sunday morning however, was a different story.

Sunday morning I knew I was getting really sick and that I would be down for awhile.  My birthday was coming up and I had people traveling out of town for planned dinners and celebrations.  Again, I just let it all go. I knew no matter how much I had planned, the Universe always has a better plan.  So I just went with it.  Later in the week I was starting to get my pep back.  Friday morning was when the entire experience began to sum itself up for me.  I asked if I could observe a Tibetan Yoga class.  That was when I had the most incredible conversation with the instructor.  Being so moved and inspired from that conversation, I was able to go home and reflect on the last couple of weeks.

For as far back as I can remember, I have clung to outcomes of situations.  In order for me to put my heart on the line, I wanted a guaranteed outcome.  And if that didn't happen, I would think I was being punished. I would feel sorry for myself and become angry and bitter.  When I first moved out on my own three years ago, finances were my obsession.  I was always feeling like I was lacking and that what "little" money I had would be pulled out from under my feet and my life would come crashing down.  Time and time again I would worry. But in the end, it always ended up being just fine.  I worked very hard only to keep my head barely above water, but I always had exactly what I needed.

The above example has happened so many times in the last few years that when I started delving into my spiritual practice I felt an abundance of strength because I knew I was being held up and taken care of.  As one of my favorite yogis says, "Keep up and you will be kept up".  This is the truth.  I never doubt this for a second now because I have lived it enough to know.

So the yama that revealed itself to me was non-attachment.  I realized that I have practiced this enough and have converted faithfully within the practice of just knowing.  I don't have crazy expectations anymore.  I don't need to try to force outcomes.  I don't need to barter with the Universe for what "should" be.  I accept what is.  And what I need I already have. For two weeks  I was not attached to any of the outcomes, loss of finances, and possible cancellation of plans.  And what I got in return was abundance.  Abundance of well being, gratitude, appreciation, love and yes, financial security. I've learned in faithfully letting go, I see the true abundance that is always in front of me.

The article from Monday, One Year Later, was a letter of gratitude to the Universe.  It was an acknowledgment of my practice. No matter what has fallen apart, the cracks in all that is broken are simply a separation of parts and pieces to create room to grow within the new space between.  It is taking what we have learned and using it to create something better.  I have had a lot of breakage, but from that I have practiced a new way of being.  Our past, until we learn a more expansive way of being, will always be in our present.  When our intention is to breathe through the dust and rubble, when all settles, we see the new view that is before us.

How have you learned to let go and just accept what is?  What yama is calling to you?  How do you see it show up in your life?  Share with us, we would love to hear from you!

As always with love,

Jennifer

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©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.

Meditation For Stillness

Happy Meditation Wednesday Spirit Launchers! We all have such busy lives these days don't we?!? At the end of the day, how do we really keep the hamster wheel turning without completely falling off from the fast pace of it all?

I had a recent conversation with a friend who was explaining to me how her anxiety has gotten the best of her. When I asked her what could be causing it, she paused and looked at me responding, "I really have no idea why it's gotten so bad." She has been taking medication to attempt to ease the discomfort, but it isn't working.  I've talked to her many times about the benefits of yoga and meditation.  Although she is open to the idea of the practice, she instead decided to make an appointment with her doctor to adjust her medications. What do we do and what do we turn to when life becomes too much?

For me, when I am overwhelmed, the answer always is to be still. To be still, listen and know everything will be okay.  Nothing is too big to handle.  So I wanted to dedicate today's meditation to our busy daily lives. This is such a simple tool that we can interject into any part of our day.  When the tightness in our chest, shoulders and neck starts to rise.  When our breath becomes quick and uneasy.  When life seems to be piling up on us and within us, this is a tool we can all go to.

So let's sit in a comfortable cross legged position.  Relax our hands, palms facing up on our legs. Close our eyes. Take a series of long deep breaths in and out.  Feel what exactly it is our bodies are telling us at this very moment.  Do we feel tightness, pain, discomfort anywhere? Focus on that feeling and then breathe it out of your body.  Continue to breathe deeply.

The mantra for this meditation is simple.  You will repeat the words "So Hum", meaning "I am that".  Mantra helps us maintain focus, but also helps us to call in from the deepest part of ourselves the connective line of the Universe for help.  As you inhale, say in your mind, "So".  As you exhale, say in your mind, "Hum".   Repeat this mantra over and over for as long as you wish.  The longer you sit within the meditation the more beneficial it becomes.

When you finish, take note of the changes you feel in your physical body as well as your emotional body. What changes do you notice?  How can you use this mantra as a back pocket reminder throughout your day to find your own stillness no matter how big the challenge you are facing?

May your day be filled with love and peace.

Namaste

As always with love,

Jennifer

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©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.

One Year Later

Time has its patterns

Undoing and rethreading.

Learning and living.

Reshaping and remaking.

Letting go and moving forward.

The steps to our very own masterpiece.

-Jennifer-

I just celebrated my 35th birthday one week ago and what a difference one year makes.  Although I was fighting through an upper respiratory infection and extreme exhaustion for two weeks leading up to my birthday, it was still the best celebration I have ever had.  Now there was no big party per say, just separate gatherings with family and friends. Besides the gatherings, there were celebrations and surprises along the way. The first of which being the day before my actual birthday.  A rather large gift came to me early.

I signed up to observe a Tibetan yoga class.  Instead of observing the class, I was blessed with the opportunity to have an hour and a half long conversation with the instructor Lea.  She shared not only her own practice, but the story within her practice and how she was led to do what it is she is doing today. Teaching and leading a life focused on love, service and compassion.  The very life I've been consciously practicing for the last year and a half.  The similarities of her story and mine touched the deepest part of my soul. It was as if the Universe was speaking to me through her and letting me know I was heading in the right direction in life.  As supportive as my family and friends are of my spiritual practice, none of them are practicing to the degree of my own commitment. I get smiles and comments like, "Oh that's great!" and then a quick change of subject within the conversation.  And I understand it and accept it for what it is. But I've been longing to have people to share my own story and experiences with, that understand my goals and intentions.  People who I can share and learn more about the philosophies that have led me to where I am today.  People who truly get what it is that I'm doing.  

We talked about the philosophies behind the Tibetan practice.  One by one Lea listed what the practice focuses on and entails and it lined up with the spiritual journey I've been setting out on for over a year now.  I became rather overwhelmed as she continued to unravel the focus of this particular practice.  It resonated so deeply with my daily life's practice I was almost speechless.  My heart was so full by the end of the conversation I was brought to tears.  I thanked her for all that she had taught me but quickly left the studio because I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes.  I cried all the way home and for awhile once I reached home. It was the first time I was able to share space with someone who I felt really understood what I'm trying to do with my life.  The constant gratitude and the constant need to stand in my truth and be who it is that I am intending to be.  To live to be in service of myself and my own gifts and to bring those gifts to be of service to others. Again, what a difference one year can make.

Last October I was just edging into my spiritual practice.  It was the following month that a meditation from Deepak Chopra broke my heart open and changed me forever.  The quest through this meditation was to see God in everyone for one day.  I've talked in other articles about this experience. As a nurse, this was the perfect assignment.  And that night's shift I was presented with that perfect assignment.  It was my last night on the oncology unit and I was given an impossible assignment.  I had six patients, no assistant on the floor to help, all of my patients had uncontrolled pain, nausea and vomiting.  It was complete chaos.  Yet, through all of it, I felt I was the calm in this perfect storm. All of the chaos, however, wasn't my real assignment. I had a patient that was a little elderly man and I was told by the nurse I was taking over for, that he was a grumpy little old man at that.  He had been yelling at the staff incessantly all day.  I knew at that moment that HE, was my assignment for the night. I dedicated the large majority of my time to him that entire shift.  And by the end of the shift I knew that all he really wanted was to know that he wasn't just another patient. He wanted to know that he meant something.  That he was seen and heard and that he was treated like a person, not just a room number.  

By the end of my shift he looked at me, pointed at me shaking his finger and said, "Whether I live or whether I die, I will always remember you.  I will never forget you.  You are one of the good ones." Our eyes locked and nothing could take me away from that moment.  My heart was so full.  I said in return, "I will never forget you either."  This experience forever changed me.  For the next few days I couldn't stop thinking about the moment when our eyes locked.  I realized I saw God in him.  And that wasn't just a human to human conversation. That was a spirit to spirit conversation. One year later, that experience is just as prevalent in my life as it was the very day it happened.

I can't quite explain fully how incredibly different I feel today compared to just one year ago.  But what I can explain is that I've chiseled away at my heart blocks. The weight of the world I no longer carry on my shoulders.  I take one day at a time, one lesson at a time, one moment at a time, and I continue to be wide awake enough to see it all as it is happening.  A few years ago, I had completely lost myself.  I forgot how to love, how to have fun and how to live life.  I had to rewire my head to my heart.  I had to reconnect to a power greater than myself.  And I had to learn to believe again that life was to be lived in a manner of greatness. Not a second is to be wasted on worry, judgement, or doubt.

Yoga came into my life for a reason.  First, it was a physical practice that brought mental relaxation.  Then something happened and it became a directional way of life.  Now that I am fully studying yogic texts, I am finding within them, messages that I have previously received in meditations.  Nudges of guidance I've been receiving all along the way.  My faith has grown so much stronger than anyone else's doubt.  That subtle voice inside has been with me always.  I've released the shadows that deafened me to that voice.  I've shed light on my own pathway to this incredible life that is set out before me and within me.  And I am so grateful for it all.

Where are you one year later in your own life?  Share with us, we would love to hear from you!

As always with love,

Jennifer

Email me at jfremionfw@gmail.com

©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.

Trust Meditation

Happy Wednesday Spirit Launchers!  It is time yet again for our midweek meditation.  Today is the day we all come together sharing in the same intention of finding peace, love and acceptance in others and in ourselves.  When we join together as one with a shared intention, miracles occur.  So look for the miracles in today.  They truly are everywhere.

This meditation was inspired by one of my classmates last night.  We were discussing a particular section of reading and she asked the question, How do you accept someone treating you poorly? I've written many articles discussing this very topic.  This was something I struggled for many years with myself. So I sat and listened to her try to talk her way through the situation, knowing that the answer would come to her when she was ready to hear it. The answer lies inside of her.  Only she knows the details of the situation.  I could see her struggle in trusting in the answer she knew to be right for her and what she wanted to do.

Trust is Faith.  Knowing that we are abundantly held in this Universe is the very strength that can help us march forward as the peaceful warriors we are meant to be.  So today we will focus on trust.  Trusting in our Faith, our inner knowing and guidance.  Trust is the key to unlock the door to any struggle we may be facing at the moment.

Sit in a comfortable seated position.  Take a few long deep breaths in.  If you like, light a few candles before you along with listening to soft music.  Set a peaceful scene. This meditation will take you deep within your own heart.  So let's begin.

Continue to breathe deeply until you have reached a state of relaxation.  Then breathe naturally. Think of whatever it is that is bothering you, that you are questioning, or simply searching for answers.  Then release that to the Universe. Continue to sit in stillness.  Let the thoughts move in and out of your mind.  Do not attempt to control them.  Once the thoughts have settled, allow yourself to talk directly to your heart. 

Ask your heart, "What is it that I need to know?"

Sit in silence as long as you wish.

The answer may not come to you immediately.  It may not even come to you during this meditation.

Just be patient and trust.  You will receive the answer at the most perfect time.

May your day be filled with love and light always.

Namaste

As always with love,

Jennifer

Email me at jfremionfw@gmail.com

©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.

A Brave Face

Once the mask of bravery is shed,
We can begin the real work.
We can get to the heart of what really matters.

-Jennifer-

We enter into each new moment of our lives with a sense of bravery.  It is in our most honest moments, that we can put all masks aside, let all barriers crumble to the ground, and let our original Self shine.  We have different roles with different people in our lives.  I've learned that in the moments that I shine within my own light, whether expressing it through words, my energy and efforts or my internal dialogue, everything that I do is better if I stay true to my Self.

Spirit Launcher was a huge venture for me.  I was told in meditation to "start writing".  So I began writing my first book.  But that just wasn't enough.  I felt the biggest force within me telling me to get my writing out now. Not to wait until my book was complete.  This has been such a shift for me in everything that I do.  I didn't know where Spirit Launcher would lead me.  I just knew I had to do it.  This has been a test of my own vulnerability and faith.  The message I had to send was more important than what any critic may have to say about the work.  And as professor Brene Brown states so candidly in her lectures on her own experience with critics and vulnerability, "If you're not out in the arena getting your butt kicked everyday, I don't want to hear what you have to say."  In other words, if you're not brave enough to put your heart on the line and go where it's leading you to go, you really don't have a valid opinion about anyone who is out there actually doing it.  When we are in our own creative force, we support and love others.  And through love, we forget how to judge.  You can always sense where critical people are in their own lives.  And it's usually not where they want to be at all.

Since I've started Spirit Launcher and putting my heart on the line with every article, I've had perfect strangers contact me about the material and I've had new and old relationships shift.  Most have been extremely positive.  There have been a few people who are visibly uncomfortable with me being honest.  With me putting my heart out there about where I've been and where I am now.  The heart of the matter is where I live everyday.  It influences every thought and every action.  Yet for some, the heart of the matter is the scariest place of all.  Somewhere along the lines, some people have convinced themselves that going through life pretending everything is "perfect" is what we are supposed to do. I have found from personally living that way most of my life, that living like that, we are living away from the truth. That we in fact aren't really living at all.

I've had more people reach out to me in hard times and confusing times. They are looking for the answers to life.  My advise to them always is, to be patient, stay open and the answers will come to you. It's a daily practice and most of all, how bad do you really want it?  How much are you willing to work for it? For me, in my journey, I am going to be all in.

You don't have to have all of the answers.  Life will reveal everything you need to know in perfect time.  But when you are desperate for anything, you can begin to look for the answers in all the wrong places. Sometimes though, that is a necessary part of the journey.  Although I know that is where someone is headed, until they are ready to see that for themselves, they will do it no matter what.

I know when I got out of my divorce and the failed relationships that followed, I had hit the wall enough to know I couldn't do it anymore.  I knew what I wanted in life. Yet, I felt the answers were being revealed to me, from within.  I had been making the mistake of thinking I could go outside of myself to find what it was I was looking for.  It was a strange yet familiar concept of being guided internally in my decision making. It was the very factor I had been ignoring my entire adult life, so I figured maybe that is where all of the answers lie.  And sure enough, it is.

This article was influenced by a client that I saw recently.  We've been talking very much in depth over the last couple of years about her divorce.  When I heard she immediately entered into another relationship I cringed.  But I knew this was part of her process.  I know the importance of figuring out what went wrong in one relationship before entering into another. The importance of taking the time to figure out how we got in the first relationship, why it didn't work for us, and what all we gained and potentially lost along the way.  And I learned those lessons from entering into another relationship shortly after my own divorce. We learn from living.  As difficult as that can be sometimes, it is just that simple.

So about two years out, this client's second relationship has ended.  Now she is at a major cross roads.  She is still grieving and in the confusion of her marriage that is just now getting finalized.  And the new relationship, her crutch, is no longer there for her to lean on. She is standing on her own for the first time. And I could feel how terrified she was in doing that.  I see her looking for answers.  But I do see her in the process of looking for the answers everywhere outside of herself.  

Now don't get me wrong, we have messengers in life bringing us lessons all along the way.  If we aren't able and willing to listen to what our hearts are telling us and guiding us to do, we can often times misinterpret what those messengers may be bringing us. If we are not listening to our hearts, we can fall into the same patterns.  Only we won't know we're doing it until it's done.  Again, sometimes this has to be part of the learning process.

My client looked at me at one point and said, "I know I'm supposed to listen to my heart.  The rational, logical part of me just won't let that happen."  I told her, until our hearts become our minds, nothing in life will change. It becomes the pattern of same old, same old.

I knew as she walked through my door she was wearing her brave face.  She talked about an extremely difficult period she just faced as her new relationship failed.  She continued to say, "Now that I've got my divorce papers signed, I feel on top of the world."  I wanted her to embrace that feeling, but I also wanted her to brace herself for what was to come.  In conversations over the last year I've told her you will have good days and bad days.  Feel it all.  Don't avoid any of those emotions.  It will be one of the most difficult things you will do, but in the end it will be one of the best things you can do for your Self.  

So I immediately saw her mask of bravery as she walked through my door.  It was a dizzying energy of a forced smile, racing thoughts and statements and a display shown by someone who wanted to just be happy.  She is in the search phase.  And I get it.  What I tried to convey to her even hours later was healing is healing.  It is a process.  It doesn't matter what it is we are healing from, it is all the same.  The most important part is to allow yourself the time to heal.  Everything and everyone else that doesn't serve that purpose is just a distraction.  The most important part of entering into any new relationship whether it be a friendship or romantic is being able to offer your whole Self.  Because if we're not bringing that to the table, we and the other person are getting the short end of the deal.

Our journey back to ourselves can be a long one.  It is our intention to get back that counts.  We will slip and fall, curl up and hold out.  But it is the intention of finding our hearts again and the meaning behind it all that matters.  We are all just doing our best.  We do what we know.  Once we accept the journey and let go of the exact out come, that is when the real work starts.  Miracles happen. 

We will yo-yo back and forth in our daily decisions.  We will have days of the highest highs followed by days of our lowest lows.  We don't have to pretend.  We only have to remember to love.  Love in the moment, love what is and love the lessons that life continues to bring. That is how we can always find our way.

Share with us your journey of Self discovery.  What obstacles have you faced?  How did you learn to shed your mask of bravery and get down to the heart of what matters?  Share with us, we would love to hear from you!

As always with love,

Jennifer

Email me at jfremionfw@gmail.com

©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.

A Sunday Message: Lean On

Lean in and lean on Faith.

Life is constantly changing.

Grow with each moment.

-Jennifer-

I've been reflecting a lot lately.  About where life has taken me in my past, the lessons I have learned in both happiness and pain, and the exciting ride I continue to take with each new day.  The one constant that has shown in all of these moments is Faith.  Leaning into it and leaning on it, in everything I do.  

Through Dr. Wayne Dyer's gracious writings, I was blessed with the lesson of learning about the Divine that resides in each of us.  The light that never fades no matter how many times we've willingly or unwillingly tried to dim it. The light that prevails through everything.  The power within us that never allows us to give up, no matter how tough life's lessons become. 

Lean into each moment by leaning on Faith.  Knowing that inside of each of us resides that eternal light.  A force of nature to be reckoned with. Never allow yourself to settle.  Having Faith allows us to understand that life will bring us the people, things, and opportunities we need in any given moment.  They are all of our teachers.  No matter if they bring us more lightness or are a shadow figure, we will learn something.  About them, about life, and even more so, about ourselves.

What is before us is exactly what we need.  And if we follow Faith's lead, we know we will always be taken care of.  I wrote an article awhile back called, An Answered Prayer.  An answered prayer is the beauty that aligns us with reassurance that we know what we need and that it is not just about what we want.  The flip side to that is an unanswered prayer. These arise from us knowing what we want, but the Universe knowing better and gracing us with exactly what we need.

When we lose Faith we can become a wrecking ball to our own lives and even to those around us. Having Faith, gives us the knowing and the know how to move forward with grace no matter what has trailed us in our past. Each lesson is a new beginning.  Our perception changes as we grow into these new beginnings. As we see our own truth more clearly.  Trust that you have already arrived and yet you are still on your way. 

May your day today be blessed with love and light.

As always with love,

Jennifer

Email me at jfremionfw@gmail.com

©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.

Life And Lemons

A sour note can be a breath of fresh air. 

It is all in how we perceive it.

We are forced to look within in order to find our 

deepest strength. It is within that,

the great lesson is revealed.

-Jennifer-

I mentioned a few articles ago about this week's alter question for my yoga teacher training.  If fear wasn't an option...?  It was interesting how we all interpreted the question differently.  And it was even more refreshing when one of my instructor's said, "There is no right or wrong way to answer this."  This question really got me thinking.  The funny thing was by Sunday, I had a revelation.  I had yet to come up with an answer to this question for Tuesday's class.  I realized that for the first time in my life, I am actually living and living big.  Everything I ever wanted to be doing in life I am actually doing or I am in the process of working towards.  I get to work with my clients with my business, I get to go to work everyday as a nurse, I have Spirit Launcher which inspires me to reflect on my daily living through my writing, and now I have my yoga teacher training that is deepening my spiritual practice. I am in service everyday.  Life is good, even in the times when it turns sour.

I've suffered a lot of disappointments, set backs and down right devastation in my life.  Looking back though, without these trials, I wouldn't be who and where I am today.  It is in those tough times that show me what I am made of.  They allow my God light to really shine through.  Those are the moments where I have been reminded even when my eyes couldn't see, the abundant strength in which I am held every moment of every day.  These trials also shine an even brighter light on my triumphs.  

I've learned to embrace fear and failure as part of life.  I'm not so quick to judge myself by my actions and reactions.  As a matter of fact my internal dialogue is completely different than even a couple of years ago.  I used to beat myself up over the littlest things.  And now, it's just a brush off of the shoulder.  I get back up and try it again.  We are only learning after all.  

Perfection is a dream robber.  If our goal is perfection instead of our best, then disappointment is going to be waiting around the corner for us on all areas of the map.  But if we are leaning towards doing our best in the moment, instead of needing perfection, we brush ourselves off. We reset in the next moment as if the other never really mattered. 

This weeks yoga class was extremely challenging.  I wasn't physically feeling my best.  But I was able to still get lost within the postures and movements and give it my all.  My practice has allowed me the freedom within my own mind and carrying over to my body to just let go and do it.  It may not be pretty and it could even be quite messy, but the beauty lies within just doing it.  I'm not a fixture on the sidelines any more.  I want to be the star player when it comes to my life.  My intention is never perfection.  My intention is in the commitment of doing.  It doesn't have to be my best work.  It just has to be my best effort in that very moment.

Life will bring us lemons.  That is just a simple fact of life. They are our trials to date. We need the sweet and the sour, the ups and downs, the peaks and the valleys.  It is what makes life unpredictable and full of surprises.  It is how we handle each delivery that determines what we get from it all.  What will our take away be?  Bitter or sweet? So don't wish them away or wish them not to happen.  Look for the lessons they bring and your inner strength that is revealed. You will get to know a new part of yourself through the challenge.  Add a little sweetness to the sour spots in life.  This is how we settle the task and move on to what next is waiting for us behind each new sunrise.

How have you dealt with your own sour spots in life?  What did you learn about yourself?  Share with us, we would love to hear from you!

As always with love,

Jennifer

Email me at jfremionfw@gmail.com

©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.

Inner Voice Meditation

Happy Wednesday Spirit Launchers!  Today is another community meditation.  Each week we join together to celebrate ourselves, our lives and each other.  I've talked lately about how I'm growing into sharing my story and my life through spoken word.  The transition from written word to spoken word has not been easy for me. And in fact, I've always struggled expressing myself vocally.   But each week with my yoga teacher training, little by little, my voice becomes more steady and able to be heard.  I remind myself constantly through this process, to be patient because I AM growing.

So before class yesterday, I practiced a chakra meditation focusing on my throat energy center.  In Sanskrit it is called Vishuddha, the center of expression.  I wanted to clear any blocks that may prevent me from speaking my truth. I want to share my inner voice with the world.  So this is the meditation I will share with you today!

Please find a comfortable seated position.  Close your eyes and rest your hands palms facing up on you legs. Take a few long, deep breaths in and release.  Feel the air fill your lung space with each inhale and then feel that space empty with each exhale.

Focus your attention on your throat.  Visualize the color blue in that space. Blue represents the energy center of the throat.  Begin chanting the word Hum by taking a long deep breath in and releasing the breath with the word Hum.  This will be our mantra. You can literally feel the vibration of the word in your throat. The word Hum is the energetic tone to release and open the throat space.  You can allow any negative energy to retire itself and move out of your way.  I chanted this for about 10 minutes yesterday.  You can choose to do it as long as you need.  The longer it is practiced the more beneficial it becomes.

Whenever you feel yourself struggling to find words to express what you need to say or mean to say, remember this practice.  Keep it close to your heart.  You will see the miracle occur right before your eyes.

Many blessings to you throughout your day.

Namaste

As always with love,

Jennifer

Email me at jfremionfw@gmail.com

©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.

Some Other Way

We can attempt to choose

the direction. Or we can follow

the given direction.  The choice

is always ours.

-Jennifer-

This past Saturday marked my 9th year in business for my skin care spa.  It was hard to believe so many years have gone by since my ideas were just dreams written on paper in a note book.  I began to look back at all of the years that have gone by.  The very beginning and the struggle to get the business going.  Then the moment in which it took flight.  Launching a dream is never simple.  It will always come with its ups and downs.  All that is needed is a heart full of love, commitment and faith.  Lean into any and all of the opportunities as far as each one will take you. Understanding that you are being led every step of the way, takes the pressure of worry off your shoulders and allows you to focus on what is important.  Your promise of purpose.

Saturday was a very special day for me.  My very first client of the day was one of my very first clients that ever walked through my door.  She has been with me and supported me every step of the way.  She knows my entire story both professionally and personally.  This got me thinking about how I gave up the opportunity to move to a big city to do this work.  Yet this new opportunity came my way and I grabbed it and never looked back.  Beyond all of the naysayers, the doubters, and the people who simply didn't understand, my mission was clear.  This was the love I went after, after attempting to fulfill someone elses dream for six years in college.  This was my dream to begin to live. And although in the beginning fear stopped me in my tracks, the Universe rerouted that dream right back to me.

That's the amazing thing about life.  I've said it many times, that no matter what, we are abundantly supported.  If fear stops us in our tracks, the Universe will send the lesson back to us in some other way.  It may not look the same, smell the same, or feel the same.  But underneath it all, it is our own gift of fulfillment given back to us for another try.

The miracles that occur in my life everyday are simply undeniable anymore.  Something very cool happened yesterday.  My dad said to me, "What is that thing you wanted to teach me?"  He then looks up an old text on his phone from months ago, of a mantra meditation that I tried to teach him when he was making a difficult professional decision.  He blew it off back then and called it hocus-pocus.  But today, he was open.  My life has transformed in the last year and a half to the point to where most people no longer question my methods. Because they see that whatever it is that I'm doing, is working.  And working well.  So I taught him again the very meditation I attempted to teach him months ago.  This time, he was willing and therefore able. He was willing to lean on faith and therefore able to receive the messages being delivered his way.  When we choose faith in something bigger than ourselves, that is when the light of a miracle can be let in.  When we continue to let that crack in our heart become bigger, the light is then able to radiate, allowing continuous miracles to occur.

I was explaining to a friend last week that the celebration is approaching for a particular Guru.  It is believed that if you celebrate his life up until his birthday and upon his birthday ask him for something, then he must grant it. I thought this was a fun and intriguing story.  My friend's response however was, "Well wishes don't come true.  And if you are going to ask for something, don't ask to find love because I've tried that and it doesn't work.  The wish never came true. It's all a joke." I could see him tensing from across the table. This clearly hit a nerve with him. I don't have his background story on why this upset him to this degree, but I can guess just by his daily actions what went wrong. The problem with making a wish about a particular person or having to have a definitive outcome is that you are not being open to what life is willing to give you. So of course that wish more than likely will not come true.  But when we release the wish as open ended to the Universe with no attachment, we allow the Universe to do her thing and bring us our fortune just as it is intended for us.  It is the attachment to outcome, the inability to lose control over matters that keep us stuck and impede our growth. 

Be very careful and cautious about the words of others who so openly try to deflate our own dreams and abilities.  They often times mean no harm.  They simply have lost faith.  When we allow control and the need to control take over, we have lost faith.  Always remember it is in letting go that miracles are allowed to come into our lives.  In letting go, we don't need our fortunes told. We need no crystal ball.  We don't need a sneak peak or a preview.  After all, that will just ruin the surprise.  Life will give us clues along the way if we are veering off course or losing pace.  We must trust, believe and know that the path we are being guided on and the direction in which we are being guided to is the way.  No matter how many times we veer off due to our own control issues, we can always choose a different way.  Whether by changing a thought, a pattern, or a view, we can choose to be led to our destiny and live within our own greatness within any given moment.

How has fear held you back from living out the life that was intended?  What other way did the Universe bring that dream back to you?  Share with us, we would love to hear from you!

As always with love,

Jennifer

Email me at jfremionfw@gmail.com

©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.

If Failure Wasn't An Option

Fear, failure, fatigue, forfeit. 

The progression of a forgotten dream.

Fear, failure, fortitude, fortune.

The progression of a dream fulfilled.

-Jennifer-

This week for my yoga course we were assigned a question.  What would we do if failure wasn't an option?  If fear wasn't a factor, what would we grant ourselves permission to do or be in life? I have always loved this question because it gets down to the heart of all things. This immediately got me thinking, of course.  The fear of failure has run rampant in my life from a very early age.  I lost my ability to express myself as a child.  My parents had a very practical standpoint. It is better to have a safe bet than to take a risk of something not working out.  Dreams were meant to be dreamt and then, you woke up to reality. I was an extremely creative child.  Yet the creativity largely went unnoticed.  So I shut down. My dreams were so colorful in my mind.  I just thought that the reality of them happening wasn't a possibility. So I daydreamed a lot!  I lost my outer voice.  I also lost the inner voice of love towards myself. The moment I gained that ability back in my early twenties, I met my ex-husband. And then the familiar pattern continued.

Fear was instilled in us with everything we did growing up.  We were expected to follow a certain path in order to be "successful".  The formula for life was, you went to college, you got a job that paid the bills, and that was life. It took me six long years to graduate with my bachelor's degree because it wasn't what my heart was telling me I needed to do.  And although my parent's always did their best and had our best interests at heart, they didn't know how to lead us to fulfill our dreams in life.  In fact, it was simply believed to be a childish thought to have a dream and dreams were meant to be given up on. Their philosophy was if you get a good steady paying job then you never have to struggle in life.  Parents want to know that their children are well taken care of even after they have left the home.  What they didn't realize for me, the struggle was not being able to spread my wings and live within my own creative nature.

I still remember advice given to me from a college professor of mine.  She said to me during a meeting, "Why aren't you going into professional writing? This is clearly what you are supposed to be doing.  You love every minute of it.  I'm confused as to why you aren't pursuing this?"  My response, "My parents told me to go to school to be a teacher.  I wanted to be a music teacher, but they told me I'd never make enough money doing that.  So now I'm in general education and I can't stand it.  But I don't have a choice."  Her response to that was, "Who is paying for your school?"  I told her that I was paying for it myself.  She said, "Then you do have a choice.  And what are you waiting for?"

Fifteen years later, I remember that conversation like it was yesterday.  She was right.  Finally, my last year of college I decided to take my life back.  This was my life and it was mine to do what I wish.  So I fulfilled a different dream of going to school for skin care. I felt the momentum building in my life as I completed the course with flying colors.  However, I was in a relationship that soon would become my marriage.  The offers of moving to a big city through connections of my instructor's caused the fear to settled in.  The self talk started up of what if I fail, what if I move across the country and I don't become successful, what if I get out there and I'm just not good enough?  And then the momentum stopped.  I clipped my own wings again, purely because of the fear factor of failure.

It took a good portion of my adult life of picking up the pieces of my shattered heart that I had been a willing participant in, to finally figure out that fear and failure are all a part of life.  And in fact the more you fear something, the more you have to push yourself to do it.  Often times, it is your own calling that is signalling to you that now is the time.  The fear threshold is there to be walked over.  It doesn't always happen gracefully, but that is totally fine.  Just as long as you get to the other side of fear, a new unfolding in life is waiting there for you. You will be tried and tested.  It is all part of this amazing process.

It has been my mission especially the past year and a half to push myself beyond my fear threshold.  Every time I've met it there, I've come out on the other side with the reward of being alive in life and what is next to come.  It's not easy to look fear in the face and say bring it on!  But let your heart race, become dizzy and shaking, become terrified in the challenge of knowing that it is just that, a challenge.  And what awaits you on the other side is something spectacular.  In your own momentum you will build a strength of faith, trust and knowing that this is all part of the process.  What we live out is what we learn about ourselves.  Fear is a test that can show us abilities deeply residing within us that have been waiting to come out, be seen and be used.  It is developing our strongest sense of self.

This week's assignment will be an interesting one for me. So I'm going to dig deep this next week.  Maybe there is a forgotten dream that I need to bring back to life.  My mission in dealing with fear has included understanding the process of pursuing a dream and living life always has a fear element and the possibility of failure. It is what we take with us in those moments that carry us to our fortune, our destiny.  They bring us back to our original Self.

So if failure wasn't an option, what would you be doing?  And if you haven't started, what is holding you back?  How could you get closer to loosening your own restraints and going for it?  Share with us, we would love to hear from you!

As always with love,

Jennifer

Email me at jfremionfw@gmail.com

©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.

Out Loud

Say out loud only what you mean.

And think only what you would say.

-Jennifer-

One week ago I had the pleasure of meeting all of my yoga teachers.  Yes there are two instructors for the course, yet I was sitting in a room full of not just my yoga-mates and two instructors, but all of my new teachers. Not only will we all get to know one another very closely through the course, but through getting to know each other, we will deepen our knowing of ourselves.  There are maybe fifteen or so of us all together and there was an immediate warmth to the atmosphere.  A huge part of it was the openness of my instructor Dani.  She immediately informed us that this class was meant to expand our knowledge on yoga and meditation, but it was also to help us get rid of "all of our shit" in order to do so.  With that statement, I had butterflies thinking about how this class is going to deepen my life in so many ways.

I began writing my first book at the first of the year.  As I was expanding on the chapters something just didn't feel complete.  Something told me that taking this yoga course would give me the completion to my book. I believe wholeheartedly that it is going to help to deliver a deeper sense of completion in my life.  

Spirit Launcher has broadened my bravery as I express my inner most experiences and knowledge of my own life, every day with friends, family and perfect strangers.  It has allowed me to stand in my truth even more honestly than I ever have before.  As we went around the room in last Tuesday's class, we introduced ourselves and told a snippet of our own stories.  What brought us to the class, what life was like before our practice, where we are now and where we wish to go within it.  

On my way home from the class, I realized that I had the opportunity to speak about my life.  I'm so used to writing about it, it almost seemed foreign to talk about how I came to be where I am.  It then occurred to me, that this experience is going to enable me to tell my story out loud.  My written voice is one thing.  I love being gifted each new day material to share with the world.  But speaking, brings an entirely different element. One of my goals is to begin lecturing about my own life experiences.  Clearly, this is where I'm being led to next.

This class will be full of surprises.  I could never predict what all will come of this course.  But I will predict it is another stepping stone in my promise of purpose. It will be an even bigger heart opener.  And I am ready to receive and deliver.  My written voice can say what it needs to say.  Now my spoken voice will learn to do the same.  I no longer have to hold back.  I can find the freedom to break through all of my constraints. I can find comfort, within the newness of telling my story out loud.  Now, it can be seen and now it will be heard. 

Our voices are our life's song.  I am no longer too fearful to sing out loud.  To be the voice that is heard. To be the message behind that voice.  This is me, standing in my truest self.  As the message during meditation told me a few weeks ago, "You're just getting started", I am ecstatic with where I've been, with where I am in this very moment, and with where it is I will be going. For my life's concert, I have the best seat in the house.

How do you show yourself out loud?  Share with us, we would love to hear from you!

As always with love,

Jennifer

Email me at jfremionfw@gmail.com

©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.

You Being You

Our purpose is the thunderbolt

of wisdom within our very

own hearts.

-Jennifer-

It's taken me a long time to get here.  To be in the space of acceptance of my truest Self.  To want to be in front of the crowd instead of hiding in back of the crowd. My life is a message that needs to be delivered. I want to be seen and to be heard. To be comfortable enough within my own discomfort to tell and live my own story.  And what a story it is.  

To be who I am after all, is the very person I've always wanted to be. To cut through the heartache, disappointment and shadows, in order to see the light and to live within my own awakening.  This is the life that was intended for me all along.  This was the life I so much wanted to believe existed, but always feared too much to be able to explore the possibilities in order to find out.

The development of Self is life's journey.  Through life we are taught and pick up habits that do not serve our purpose.  This brings us further and further away from our given plan.  But the seed of creative force is within us all along.  It is our heartbeat, our breath, it is the very spirit that resides inside each one of us, that enables us to be alive.  It enables us to reroute to our given path when we are ready to get back to where it is that we've originally come from.

My awakening began with a belief.  A belief that life was intended to be better than what I had settled for. I've talked in length in previous articles about my sacrifice of Self  made in entering into an abusive marriage that ensued emotional grief so great, I felt my life leaving my own body.  My spirit however, was the driving force of resuscitation that never allowed me to completely give up and give in to the shadows.  My spirit, was the very thing that kept me alive.

I've become reminiscent lately as next month marks the third anniversary of my survival.  This was the biggest leap of faith I have ever taken. I left behind my old life and prayed for something better. I had no idea what was in store for me.  Looking back, there was nothing easy about this venture. There was no guaranteed outcome.  The only comfort was in knowing that life could only get better from where I was.  The choice was purely up to me.

So I got to work.  The serious work started after graduating with my nursing degree.  At that point there were no distractions or obligations.  Life was going on and I needed to get back in the game. How, you might ask?  I began to finally listen to my heart.  The very thing that is our inner guide and has all of the answers, just happened to be the very thing I ignored time and time again.  It was a matter of the heart, plain and simple.  I had created a habit in life of having an idea of what I wanted.  So if what or who I had in my life wasn't what my heart was telling me I needed, I would try to manipulate, control, conform, imagine even, that what I had was exactly what I wanted.  I fought my heart's guidance tooth and nail.  At the end of the fight, I always lost. My life changed as soon as I finally accepted what it was to actually listen. 

So I stopped trying to be who I wasn't and doing things that didn't serve my greater purpose.  I listened and I followed.  I finally allowed myself to be guided in my own direction.  It was my very heart that brought me to the heart of my Self.  It was the point of me finally being me. 

The evolution of the heart is never a small feat.  It is our greatest encounter.  It connects us to the truth, to all that we are created to be, and our great Creator himself.  When we break through all that blocks us from the light, we can then see our own way.  Clarity becomes a way of living.  Asking for guidance from our deepest adviser becomes the way to live.  You being you, becomes the only life worth living.

How has connecting with your truth changed your life?  Share with us, we would love to hear from you!

As always with love,

Jennifer

Email me at jfremionfw@gmail.com

©2013 Jennifer Fremion. All rights reserved.